Happy with my Son

My son is far from Me, all the time coz I need to work for our future.Too hard to became a single parent that I never expected it well happen to Me. God, Thank you for giving a Me son  that I know He Understand Me and Thank you God My son Ian is getting a good environment  that I know, He will became a man with God in His Heart. Please Guide Ian and take care of Him. Amen.

Thanks God

God Thank You For All Blessings That I received. Darwin is right everything happened in a right time. We don't know what you what for me to do, so I well be the one to look for the answer that only God Knows in future what well happen to my second love. God help Me that my dream come true, a DREAM THAT EVERY WOMAN  WHAT IN THERE LIFE. 

I lost my confidence and respect to my self when i give my second change to the man i expected that he is a gift from God. sometime my belief make me hard to decide what is the best for me. 
Looking backward to my past, i sleep good and  i look at my self very smart, respectful, a woman that lucky in my careerand never have sex to any man, no bf since 5 years is hard to believe, I am full of confidence every man wanted to be with me but i can say sorry im not planning to go have bf, after all years convincing my self that im not getting younger so i need to give change to my self and stop torturing my self, I meet this man who i think he is a Gift from God all I think he is amazing he trusted me cos he send money for land and im presume that he is a lawyer he know all of the policy of the  country, I look at him too high and never notice if he is really a good man and deserving for me. Im so prouve to my self cos  I know Im in 1% in 1 million woman so I know i deserve for a good man but now its turn into hill my life, and make me dust, I lost my respect to my self and all confidence. God I know your watching me, You know that since July i don't go to work cos i already focus my self in the land that this man buy, I presume and start dreaming a new family so eager and even too hard to go back in farming i just get all my inspiration cos i have goal to have a lifetime  family with the blessings from my parents and from church.
Now, I'm asking my self do i need to accept the disaster and make me disrespect my own self, things  that i know i just forcing my self and just making things to work out even its against my will. I just dream simple life, with dignity and respect to my self and my son can be proved of me Im happy for this life already I realize better no man that to have man and make  sick and don't see me as human, I feel he is just using me cos he know im easy to please. Dear  God help me to get back in my old life. I don't need man and more money to be happy. I just need to get back  my respect to my self and confidence that i lost cos of this wrong change. Please God Help me to decide give me signed. 

Thanks God You Always Guide Me

Love sometime help us  to be strong and as of now so many problems cos of my father is sick and he is under medication and the maintenance is too expensive. God helped me to produce  all my father needs for the medication.
thanks God I have received my commission and my problem solve. I know God you always helped me . Thank you dear God you always there for me.

Prayer of help

I feel not good today, I blame my self why I let my son grow up in her father side, They dont teach my son good attitude, I feel I have a challenge to my self how to get back my son attitude the way i teach last few years, Now i have feeling that my son is not fallowing me , I need You God to teach me how to make my son show respect and love to me. I have nothing to  blame its me why i let him grow up in a family who dont know how to respect and to love with out any payment.God its not too late please help me.

No time to relax

I wanted to see  my place clean and good in my eyes.

Im Little Tired

I need to have more  time to relax to think proper way to solve all trials I have now, Please help Me God.